2019, Fitness, Me, Off Topic, personal, Uncategorized

Self Doubt

Now today there should be a well overdue Thriller review but after some fantastic news yesterday and some insightful conversations I decided to pen a more personal post.

Anyone that knows me even if you don’t particularly like me knows I’m a damn hard worker. You tell me no and I’m determined to prove you wrong, I have always been the same.

When I was at school I really enjoyed PE even took it as part of my GCSES but I was made to feel that I wasn’t good enough. So as much as it was something I truly enjoyed I looked into other passions and this one was shelved. At school it’s easy to get the necessary exercise in your day and then exams and life take over.

Anyway I’m rambling now.

Last year I found out a lot about me my habits, traits and I have changed so much in a year.

Not only am I eating things I would never have imagined I’m pushing myself both mentally and physically.

Almost a year ago I discovered Fight Klub a high intensity workout to music using punch bags. From the moment I took part I was addicted and had to work out when I could go again. I regularly attend the Falconwood class and sometimes make the Bexleyheath class. Between better eating and dedication I’m now a lot fitter than I was. At my first ever class I loved it but I was so out of my depth.

In November 2018 I took a few weeks out of work to study Exercise to Music – a course that opened my eyes and my imagination. I was one of nine ladies on the course and how each of us changed during those few weeks was impressive. I had done all the course work that I could before the course had start so in that instance I was a few segments ahead but for me nerves always take over on exam day.

On the course we did both theory exams back to back – I didn’t do badly I got 26 for Anatomy and 24 for Principles the pass mark was 28. I was deflated but had to let it go as I wouldn’t have had a chance to retake until after my practical exam.

Illness meant my practical was pretty much a car crash but my girls from the course were amazing and I got some really great feedback I felt awful and I felt like I had let myself down. So I had a bit of time going back over my theory and some time out for me.

As I have a full time job it was then trying to work out when I could take the exams. So on 10th April I went in and retook my Principles exam I improved I got 26 still two short of a pass. As these exams are multiple choice there’s no actual feedback I was frustrated but I had my Anatomy exam two weeks later so had no time to dwell. I felt much more confident and hadn’t over checked my answers and second guessed myself or so I thought. Over a week later I got an email to say I had got 24 that was two less than what I’d got on the course.

That nagging doubt and negativity crept in. I was also frustrated as the exams are done on Wednesday evenings and Wednesday’s are a pretty crazy day at work so I couldn’t see when I could redo any of them. After a few chats I had put in to redo my Principles exam on 29th May – I did some of the same revision plus I took a tutors advice and went back onto the online portal and in re-listening to it and doing the quizzes I started to see my confidence peak. Seeing as I get plagued by nerves I also decided to try Kalms tablets so I took them for a few days before and on the day of my exam.

Yesterday I received the email that would make my week I passed my Principles exam with a score of 29. I’m now one step closer to the ETM Exercise to Music qualification I’ve had a brief email chat with the tutor who gave me some advice and encouragement and I’m hoping to get booked on go retake my Anatomy exam on the 19th.

One step closer to ETM and one step closer to becoming a Fight Klub instructor.

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2018, Fitness, personal, Uncategorized, update

A brand new journey – Exercise to Music

Today I’m embarking on a brand new journey and I’m scared and excited.

Since I was a kid I’ve always loved Sporty Spice aka Melanie C. I adored everything she stood for, a kick ass female who proudly sported a football shirt in a society where girls are expected not to understand the beautiful game.

Ever since taking GCSE PE I always thought I would do more with it. I’d lived and breathed Netball, running and trampolining to name a few of my favourite sports. I don’t know what changed I guess I became overlooked and then my love of writing and of all things media overtook and as I got older I started going out and my exercise regime slowly diminished.

Earlier this year I learnt more about myself and how I treat my body. Not only have I started eating foods I would never have imagined and lessened foods that I’d ate in excess I also discovered fitness sessions that I adore and for me that’s what has changed. I’ve been doing Zumba on and off for years and I’m not saying I don’t love it but for me it wasn’t enough and now that my food is a lot better alongside that a stupid amount of walking and Fight Klub I now feel like I get proper decent workouts. I’ve also just recently started Piyo which I also love – it’s bloody hard work and takes it out of me but it’s so good for the strengthening of my body.

I’m now on my lunch break and I’ve learnt so much already.

Find what you love and run with it.

2018, Fitness, Me, Off Topic, personal

Change

I had a manager from my O2 at the O2 days who used to say it takes 28 days to form a habit. This speech would regularly come out if there were major changes and especially when he thought we wouldn’t ever be willing to try and get on board. After having a night out with my old pals it got me thinking.

Now I’ve mentioned before and I dare say it will come up again, in April I joined Slimming World and my relationship with food changed. Some of you think I’m not eating properly and that couldn’t be further from the truth if anything I eat more these days it’s just what I’m eating and how I’m making it. That’s the key.

What I’ve noticed threefold is I don’t eat in the same way. I’m more appreciative and my sweet tooth is still there it’s just not as greedy as it once was which is a good thing for my health.

I’ve always been quite an active person but in finding Slimming World I shortly after found Fight Klub and for the first time in a while I felt truly excited. If I can’t make a class I’m grumpy. Recently when I hurt my back I missed two weeks of classes. This week I returned at a lower pace although I don’t think my right shoulder thinks that was the case saying that this morning it’s feeling a lot better but I haven’t reached work yet.

Now I’m a target member I’m not trying to loose any more weight. I’m now trying to find the right balance. I’m still enjoying trying new things and there’s still a number of things I’d love to make. I’m line with that on 12th November I’m embarking on an ETM Exercise To Music course and for the first time in ages I’m truly excited to study once again. I did GCSE PE and I honestly thought i’d have done more with it and now I’m on a whole new journey. This year has been remarkable for me and when opportunity knocks say yes what’s the worst that can happen. There are a few other potentials which I haven’t ruled out either.

I have recently become a Just Strong ambassador, I’m extremely new to this but I’m very much on board for inspiring and empowering women. I have just received my package but as I was out having a cheeky night off I haven’t opened it as yet. I dare say there will be an update on this as I cannot wait to try on my new gear. www.juststrong.com as a thank you to you beauties I am able to share with you my 10% discount code HAYLTHO10 I will be reviewing the top and jogging bottoms that I have purchased. If you have any questions or would like me to try something also get in touch. I’ve seen a few girls modelling the hoodies and I maybe swayed on that as these days are getting colder.

2018, A thought? A question, Fitness, personal, Uncategorized

From March to October the change has been outstanding….

I honestly feel like I’ve been penning this post in my head for ages. At the beginning of this year I was in a really horrible place. So I appreciate anyone who is feeling low for whatever reason, but just take this it will get better.

Just recently I read an entry from my journal whilst I was away in Furteventura.

I had always said that I’m at my happiest in shorts and vest tops but back in March I didn’t feel that amazing on holiday, the lighter the top the worst I would feel – I honestly felt like I may as well have been naked. Don’t even ask regarding bikini’s before Slimming World the last time I wore a bikini was a girls holiday in 2012.

In the entry I had written how I usually feel like my true self on holiday in shorts and vests but I felt mortified by what I saw in the mirror. I had also written a list of things to start doing and thankfully I surpassed those things threefold.

If back in March you would tell me where I am and what I’ve achieved as of October I wouldn’t have believed a single word.

Following my holiday I had started to make a few changes and in April I bit the bullet and joined Slimming World. If you had told me I would have done that I also wouldn’t have believed you.

Now I don’t want to offend anyone with my next comment but I never would have thought Slimming World would be for me. I wasn’t overly overweight but for my size and build I was definitely uncomfortable to say the least. Before Slimming World I would have only really ate carrots veg wise and now Broccoli, cauliflower, butternut squash and spinach are often part of my daily meals. In hindsight a lot of what I have learnt is about moderation and learning what foods help speed up your metabolism. I’ve also realised how easy it is to over eat without realising.

As of now I’m in a much better place my health is good. Last year in trying to get fitter I managed to bust my ankle and I can wholeheartedly say that was part of my downfall with my weight. It’s very easy to ignore things that are right in front on your face.

Not only am I still doing my walk to work and sometimes back again I attend Zumba from time to time I’m addicted by Fight Klub and I’m looking at training to be an instructor which brings me onto the Exercise to Music course that I am embarking on in November. I’m hoping to get some of the theory work started as soon as I can and I’m excited for what this could mean for me. I always had a keen interest in PE at school and I’m glad to be going back to it.

Sporty Spice aka Mel C has always been my favourite she has overcome a number of struggles and keeping fit has helped her. Last night I sampled a Piyo class which was bloody hard work but so much fun. In all honesty half of what I am loving right now I couldn’t have undertaken at the beginning of the year so every hurdle I get through is a massive win.

Life’s not perfect but if you can embrace your passions and start saying yes to more opportunities who knows where they will lead. But the journey sure will be exciting. I’ve loved all the compliments on the new me let’s face it who wouldn’t but the greatest pleasure is when you’re called inspirational that truly warmed my heart and has helped me more than ever.

I hope to make more time to journal yes these things take time and sometimes thinking your personal thoughts could be seen is scary but when you look back they show you just how far you have come….

The picture in the grey was like a week into Slimming World and the England Top was like July. Below are a number of pictures from my family week to the coast. I really enjoyed taking pictures of myself this year and I love the change in me. I had arguments with friends previously as I literally couldn’t bear to see photos of myself.

Always stay true to you and realise that everything passes eventually.

2018, Fitness, Off Topic, personal, Uncategorized

If in doubt Fight it out….

I had a number of options for blog posts today and I never expected it to be this. I also never expected it to be this late in the evening. I promise no complaining and bookish goodness tomorrow. I have some gorgeous guest posts that I cannot wait to share with you.

I had a fabulous holiday and considering I was only by the seaside the weather was pretty good, and it was great to spend time with my family including my four week old niece and nephew alongside their big sister. I’d hit my Slimming World target on the Monday before I left and I expected there to be some changes. I hadn’t been a complete pig but the scales upset me last night. I don’t think it helped that I’d had a strange work day and since returning from holiday I’ve had an awful sore throat cue me feeling extremely sorry for myself.

Today I have had a good and organised food day. I’m starting to cough up crap (sorry tmi) and I’ve just finished an awesome Fight Klub class. This class has me well and truly addicted, I’m hooked and I hate missing it. I’ve even got to the point I’m now changing my plans to fit in another session tomorrow. In that hour I let out some aggression and hopefully sweated out this awful bug that I feel I have.

This is the definition of Fight Klub that is stated on the group I attend in Bexleyheath and Falconwood.

FIGHT KLUB® is the boxing and martial arts inspired workout scene sweeping the nation! Using FIGHT KLUB®’s uniquely designed punch bag, the workout is formed of structured combinations of authentic boxing, kick boxing and Thai boxing moves. Suitable for ALL levels of fitness and set to Drum & Bass and House music, the workout hits all major muscle groups in the upper and lower body. Participants benefit from improvements in cardiovascular endurance, core strength, weight loss and muscle tone.

I literally cannot imagine life without this class, so much so I’ve even started thinking about becoming a trainer. Not that I think I’m anywhere near as awesome as Maxine and Sarah are. So through some crap stuff this week I have found my strength and determination thanks to friends, family and Fight Klub. If in doubt fight it out. HOW MANY??

https://ravingklubbers.com