2019, A thought? A question, Author Love, Uncategorized

How are you spending the lull between Christmas and New Year?

As we enter this lull between Christmas and New Year it’s really got me thinking.

In this weird time space where those of us working are constantly not sure on what day it is let alone the time…I’m guessing that’s the same for you lucky ones with a long break enjoy it.

My reading hasn’t been as great as I would like and I’ve decided in this lull I would like to finish reading a few of my half started book before the New Year kicks in. I must be one of very few bookworms to not receive a single book for Christmas, my closest friends and family would say I don’t need anymore until I’ve finished the mountains that I have and in some ways they are right.

Today I did pre-order the next Mhari McFarlane which will be my first read of 2020 I should then be good and try and get through some of my ever toppling TBR pile.

In amongst spending time with two of my nieces and my nephew where I read a few of their books played mousetrap and generally had cuddles I also got back to Call Me Maybe a book that had intrigued me from the get go. One that I had instantly pre-ordered and one that is most definitely so me. It’s about a British girl called Cassie and it features a long forgotten fictional boyband. Also to anyone who knows me also extremely me, I’ve loved this book but blog tours and life have got in the way and now I’m fully focusing my spare time on this beauty.

In this kind of reflective mode of 2019 I can’t help but highlight truly loving my buddy reading with Catriona we have many plans for 2020 and I’m hoping we can get in loads more books in the new year.

So here is to a positive and productive 2020 with lots and lots of books.

2019, A thought? A question, Off Topic, personal, Uncategorized

Senses…

Now to start this post I’m going to have to ramble slightly so I apologise in advance. At the beginning of July well to be honest it could have been from the end of June but I remember it being July as I had tried to get a doctors appointment before my weekend in Dublin. I had been struggling with a piercing earache where it was leaking and all sorts leaving me in pain and slightly death.

It seems whenever I’m unwell I cannot be seen by a GP so I’m usually sat in urgent care or listening to advice from others. I went to Ireland for the weekend and I had a great time although I was still struggling with an earache. So on my return I went to Boots and purchased Earex, it helped for a bit, the puss stopped and the pain subsided temporarily at least. Mid August I was seriously struggling but with a holiday looming I wanted some answers and I wanted something to dull the pain so I went through the process of trying to be seen.

In August I was given both ear drops and then antibiotics (first via urgent care, second via an actual appointment with a GP) it improved but I knew deep down I wasn’t done with the ear pain. I then managed to get a doctors appointment and was seen by a helpful lady who told me what I knew, my ear was still blocked and I would need to be seen by ENT. That again seemed to be another battle, if they had listened to me before my holiday I would have been seen by ENT earlier.

My first experience in ENT left me in tears and I was grateful for a good book and to have work to get back to. Not only did I feel lost I felt vulnerable, having studied Physical Education and most recently fitness I know a lot of technical terms but of the ear I’m baffled. I understand that the NHS do an amazing job and are seriously stretched but on the occasions I’ve been seen I’ve been made to feel like an inconvenience. I didn’t understand what the doctors were telling me and I instantly burst into tears.

Thankfully my fears weren’t as bad as I first thought but it’s a long process that I’m still waiting on. I had to go back the following Monday – the hearing test was well explained to me and I felt somewhat better now I was being listened to. When I was then called in to see the doctor I instantly felt that vulnerability and sadness once again. On my initial appointment I was told on my next visit I would have the hearing test and the MRI and from there I would know if I needed an operation. That wasn’t the case and when I explained my frustrations and asked if there were any dos and don’ts in the meantime whilst I await the MRI letter I was merely treated like an inconvenience – like why would you ask something so stupid?

Here I was thinking that your hearing was an important part of daily life.

To my surprise it wasn’t an eight week wait for my letter regarding an MRI appointment on 1st October I arrived home after my induction for my new job to a letter for an appointment on 4th October. So as I type the continuation of this blog post I’ve had my MRI and it wasn’t fun in the slightest. That’s over with now to await my results.

Having just started a new job it’s not ideal at all but I’m hoping that seeing as I was seen a lot sooner than expected I hope that means my full hearing could be back with me soon.

The one thing that’s terrified me in this whole experience is how vulnerable I have felt. I can’t hear people walking by me until they are right in my face. It’s also made me value my senses a lot more than I have before. Feeling helpless is heartbreaking and my journey isn’t over yet but I’m trying to make the best of a bad situation.

I love audiobooks but as it stands I’ve put a hold on my audible account as my hearing is limited unless I’m listening in the comfort of my own home. I guess the positive there is that I save some money.

I’ll keep you posted…that’s if your interested.

Thursday Thoughts, Uncategorized

Thursday Thoughts – Sleep and Relaxation 

This week has been tough going physically and mentally. What hasn’t helped my mood is that I’m losing sleep thanks to the streetlight and or my neighbours night light – meaning I’m waking more and more so my sleep is incredibly disturbed which doesn’t help when you already have a busy and full on working week. I am looking at a black out blind to save my sleep. 

At work It’s SU2C (Stand Up To Cancer) and we are in full swing with cash collections tomorrow. 

Relaxation definition – The state of being free from tension and anxiety.

Recreation or rest, especially after a period of work.

I have some amazing friends and family who I should be more grateful for and I am trying to make more time for me. Whether it be listening/reading a good book. Watching TV or a film or just a good bath or a coffee. (Could do with an Irish coffee right now – although very soon I’m hoping to do a review post on something connected to Irish coffee) 

What do you do to unwind? Feel free to share your thoughts with me.