I honestly feel like I’ve been penning this post in my head for ages. At the beginning of this year I was in a really horrible place. So I appreciate anyone who is feeling low for whatever reason, but just take this it will get better.
Just recently I read an entry from my journal whilst I was away in Furteventura.
I had always said that I’m at my happiest in shorts and vest tops but back in March I didn’t feel that amazing on holiday, the lighter the top the worst I would feel – I honestly felt like I may as well have been naked. Don’t even ask regarding bikini’s before Slimming World the last time I wore a bikini was a girls holiday in 2012.
In the entry I had written how I usually feel like my true self on holiday in shorts and vests but I felt mortified by what I saw in the mirror. I had also written a list of things to start doing and thankfully I surpassed those things threefold.
If back in March you would tell me where I am and what I’ve achieved as of October I wouldn’t have believed a single word.
Following my holiday I had started to make a few changes and in April I bit the bullet and joined Slimming World. If you had told me I would have done that I also wouldn’t have believed you.
Now I don’t want to offend anyone with my next comment but I never would have thought Slimming World would be for me. I wasn’t overly overweight but for my size and build I was definitely uncomfortable to say the least. Before Slimming World I would have only really ate carrots veg wise and now Broccoli, cauliflower, butternut squash and spinach are often part of my daily meals. In hindsight a lot of what I have learnt is about moderation and learning what foods help speed up your metabolism. I’ve also realised how easy it is to over eat without realising.
As of now I’m in a much better place my health is good. Last year in trying to get fitter I managed to bust my ankle and I can wholeheartedly say that was part of my downfall with my weight. It’s very easy to ignore things that are right in front on your face.
Not only am I still doing my walk to work and sometimes back again I attend Zumba from time to time I’m addicted by Fight Klub and I’m looking at training to be an instructor which brings me onto the Exercise to Music course that I am embarking on in November. I’m hoping to get some of the theory work started as soon as I can and I’m excited for what this could mean for me. I always had a keen interest in PE at school and I’m glad to be going back to it.
Sporty Spice aka Mel C has always been my favourite she has overcome a number of struggles and keeping fit has helped her. Last night I sampled a Piyo class which was bloody hard work but so much fun. In all honesty half of what I am loving right now I couldn’t have undertaken at the beginning of the year so every hurdle I get through is a massive win.
Life’s not perfect but if you can embrace your passions and start saying yes to more opportunities who knows where they will lead. But the journey sure will be exciting. I’ve loved all the compliments on the new me let’s face it who wouldn’t but the greatest pleasure is when you’re called inspirational that truly warmed my heart and has helped me more than ever.
I hope to make more time to journal yes these things take time and sometimes thinking your personal thoughts could be seen is scary but when you look back they show you just how far you have come….
The picture in the grey was like a week into Slimming World and the England Top was like July. Below are a number of pictures from my family week to the coast. I really enjoyed taking pictures of myself this year and I love the change in me. I had arguments with friends previously as I literally couldn’t bear to see photos of myself.
Always stay true to you and realise that everything passes eventually.